Just the other day I decided to clean out my closet. I don’t do this very often for two main reasons. First, I feel uncomfortable putting aside my size zero and extra small items because, there’s still a part of me that believes they will fit me someday. Second, I hate the thought that I can’t fit into a smaller size because my body is continuously growing, however my weight has been very stable for over a month now. There’s something about being in a larger size that bothers me. With the clothes that I put aside (suit pants, chinos and tank tops) I realized something.

If you’re a woman, and have womanly curves… you’re never going to realistically fit into the smaller sizes that the media and clothing companies want. For example, my Mum got me a pair of Columbia shorts to try because I needed shorts for my trip. I tried on a size, but it wasn’t the right fit, and I went up to the next size. Even going up to that other size- it was more of “why can’t the smaller size fit me?” and “there’s no way that I’m a size eight”. Do I really look that large? I mean, this is pathetic. Clothing companies vary from designer to designer. But what really irked me is, I can fully understand why America has so many people affected by Eating Disorders. For whatever reason, if you can’t fit into your “skinny jeans”, of course you’d most likely diet. Little do you know (at the time), that so-called “diet” could potentially kill you. All to just fit into those jeans.

It’s not worth it. I’m starting to embrace my size four/six. I’ve got curves. Whomever is designing these clothes isn’t taking a womanly shape into mind. I’m not at all saying that I belong in plus size clothing, and that’s not the point. I know there’s probably conflict with clothing designers. They want a skinny (without any curves, basically a young boy) model who can show off their clothes, and it doesn’t matter how much they weigh. I personally, don’t want to be a young boy, or fit into clothing made for a twelve year old, regardless of the style.

Life is too short to obsess over your weight.