25 Plus One.

26May06

It’s a beautiful day outside. And even though I’m slightly down in the dumps (typically this happens the day after thearpy) I should try and smile. After all, tomorrow is my twenty-sixth. Last night my grandparents came over. My Dad was joking with me “how old are you going to be [...]

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Breakdown.

23May06

Today the department manager comes to me.  I was surprised to see her.  Apparently she’s “on vacation”.  If that’s true, why the hell is she here?  She does that.  She thoroughly enjoys coming into work on her days off and during vacation time.  Aside from that, I try and avoid her.  She’s often rude to [...]

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Unfinished Sympathy.

22May06

I’ve become depressed. I can honestly say that. I feel as if I’ve lost my core. What grounds me. What keeps me centered. What defines me as a person. The core of my being. It’s not easy to say that. Because you should know who you are. [...]

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Beautifully Broken.

17May06

For the first time for a very short period of time it felt like everything was the way it should of been. That it was okay to stop blaming myself for how I ended up in this way. And I’m referring to my Eating Disorder. Through therapy, my therapist has made me [...]

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Smoke.

08May06

I wish I could explain. I wish you could experience my heart. I wish you could. Because then maybe it wouldn’t be so bad. But then of course, I kind of got myself into this situation. And I’m trying to repair myself. It’s not like you can just put [...]

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